The other night DH and I were watching a commercial/preview for that show "Make me a Super.model", and one of the contestants on there goes "this isn't just a dream, it's THE dream" which, in my cynical ways, prompted me to say "wow, if the only thing you aspire to be is beautiful, you never really aspire to be much, huh?". Very witty if I do say so myself, however I have been thinking about this the past few days.
Let me start off by saying that I have never been "that girl". I'm not the type of girl who makes heads turn when she walks in a room. Yes, I was/am the funny one, the smart one, the "cute" one, the best friend one, and all in all I really liked that role growing up....it suited me. At somewhere between 5 ft and 5'1 the only way I make a presence in a room is by my personality, that of which I did develop quite nicely.....but at the same time could blend-in in a moments notice if I wanted to. However, I by no means got shafted in the gene pool as I would classify my physical appearance as "well-rounded" or "girl next door chic"...but as cynical as I was about that comment for once I would love to be THAT girl.
Sidenote here: Once right after DH and I got engaged we were talking about his "type" and how I don't really fall into it exactly. Basically his type was the typical "blond hair, blue eyes, decent body, party chick". This conversation led to DH admitting that when he was closer to my age (he is 10 years older for those who don't know) and he saw me (or someone like me-see description above) out in a bar or dance club he probably wouldn't even look twice for that reason.....nice huh? Story of my life, I swear.
OK, back to that girl. Yes, I admit for once in my life (ok, maybe a few times) I really want that attention. I want to be the girl that people (manly men obviously) look at and go "wow, she's hot/beautiful" without even knowing me....based solely on physical appearance. Petty, yeah just a little, but it doesn't stop me from wanting it. For example, it's like a skier that always comes in 3rd place at the Olym.pics....even though placing is an honor, of course he wants first place every now and then. Same deal.
Now don't get me wrong, I love the fact I was blessed with intelligence (and yes I know pretty people are smart too, I'm not questioning that). However, Im sorry.... when I heard Harvard was giving Par.is Hil.ton some honorary degree or something like that I puked in my mouth a bit but I digress.... and I'm sure I am going to get some flip side comment like "well, you would hate it if you were judged by your looks all the time" this is true, I'm not denying that....however I said SOMETIMES I want to be the head turner....just to see what it was like. That's not too much to ask, right? ;-)
Oh, and check it....I used the "." hehehe.
Update: K cleared up the Harvard thing for me....thankfully ;-)