Friday, December 5, 2008

Still holding steady and getting real.

All is holding steady in the Major household =) I actually got out of the house yesterday (yay!) and Thomas and I took Cullen to Sam's and the mall and we experienced our first public diaper change (as a sidenote: why in the world are those little changing areas so high up? I swear I had to change his diaper at boob level!) and our first public nursing session. The dogs are driving me crazy, but at least they are adjusting pretty well to the new person in household and ignore him for the most part.

Also, I must say that Cullen gave mommy quite a gift last night by allowing me to sleep 4 hours in a a row people!!! Do you know how great that is?!?!? At first I freaked out when I woke up and realized what time it was seeing as he went 5 hours between feeds, but I was thankful for the sleep AND I have made sure he is getting his needed 8 feeds in today even with the large timespan last night.

Speaking of the nights, I have learned something about myself. I know I have pretty much been puppies and sunshine about this mommy and having a new baby thing, but as Nancy puts it I am still in the "newborn honeymoon" phase and Cullen IS a wonderful baby. He has a great temperment, has a good sleeping pattern and really only cries during diaper changes BUT getting "real" for a moment I do have my moments throughout the day when I get a bit panicky about being a Mom. Right around 8ish at night I go through what I call my panic hour. It's dark, it's after dinner, I've been feeding and tending to Cullen all day, and I start to get panicky/anxious about the fact I know I am going to be up with him in the middle of the night for feedings and diaper changes. There is no question that I will not be able to just go to sleep until is inevitable I will be up at least once (yes, I know I'm really lucky that it is sometimes only once at this point, but still). It is this time of night I need Thomas to take Cullen.....change a few diapers, play with him, just do something so I don't have too. I'm also slightly jealous of my husband because he hasn't gotten up once in the middle of the night since Cullen was born.....he actually doesn't even hear him! However, I ordered my pump today and as soon as it comes in we are going to introduce a bottle and I guarantee that even if I have to wake him up, he WILL do at least one nightime feed ;-)

But speaking of my husband.....regardless of his sleeping abilities, I have NO IDEA what I would have done these past few weeks without him. I know I am extrememly lucky that he stayed off work so long (he goes back next week) and honestly he has been wonderful. He helps me with Cullen whenever I ask, he gets the dogs out of my hair when I need it, he helps to keep up with the housework and he loves his son with a passion I have never seen from's gentle, it's strong, it's's absolutely beautiful to watch. He is an amazing man and Cullen and I are very lucky.


Jen said...

It sounds like things are going well, and that Cullen is a good baby. Jillian was pretty fussy from day one and kept us up all night crying for hours even in the hospital. So here is to hoping that he stays easy!

Don't worry too much about the feedings. He'll let you know when he needs to feed and will eat as much as he requires. I remember stressing myself out in that first month because Jillian wasn't doing what she SHOULD be per what I'd read or heard. So if he sleeps a little longer, enjoy it! (Of course you'll always wake up worried whenever that happens the first few times!)

Chuck, Sarah and Emily said...

Sounds like things are going great Kat! We actually had the same fear with Em--she was sleeping 5 hour shifts early on--dr. said as long as she was gaining weight it was ok--which she was. And enjoy the pumping and getting extra sleep! I know lots of people will say how much they love feeding and can't imagine pumping--we started pumping 1 bottle a day from the get-go so dh could help with night time feedings and it was one of the best things we ever did!! Enjoy your wonderful little boy--it sounds like things are going smashingly :)

Monica Fayth said...

Sounds like things are going really well! Here's to hoping Cullen continues to have an easy temperment and sleep when he should. I also think it's awesome that Thomas has been able to spend so much time at home with you. Josh is going to try to take 3 weeks or so off when Sarah is born.